Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Looking back

It's normal for us as we're growing up to try different things, to dress different ways, all in search of figuring out who we are. Finding photography was just that for me. It was about figuring out who I was all along. It just took me getting my little "Aha!" moment to realize it.

I was your average kid... I'd say. I did well in high school so I could get it done and over with so when I graduated I would be able to move out of the small town I was from and make the life for myself that I wanted. I went off to college in hopes that I would graduate with a psychology degree and go on to graduate school.


On Dec. 28th it'll be exactly a year since I decided to quit college and do photography on my own.

It took a lot of explaining, especially to my family, but I believe it was the right decision for me to leave. I had the option of staying in school and just switching my major to photography, but I felt like I would just be wasting more money than I would be getting out of it. Having to pay for school myself it was becoming quite an expense among my already housing and living costs. I was struggling to pay for everything with just a part time job, and I was spending more time learning photography at home than I was paying attention in my general classes. I will always be grateful for my first year of school. It was there that I realized photography could be more than just something I loved growing up, but it could actually be what I do with my life. I didn't think that was possible.

Going to school for photography is always a tough question, but I think it's a personal decision and a personal decision only. So by no means do I think school for photography is a bad thing. It's just something that fits people differently, that's all. It also greatly varies for each person. I am a very self-motivated person and I can research something for weeks if I care about it enough. But I believe those who learn better from others, school is their best option.

With 2010 coming to a close I'd like to reflect on just how far I've grown and changed as a photographer in the last year.

Here are few pictures that I took over the course of the year:

Jan. 2010 - This is a self-portrait I took while I was practicing different ideas I had with a window drape:

Jan. 2010 - This is Taylor - she was the first stranger I had ever shot with who wanted to model for me.

Feb, 2010 - Practicing by taking self-portraits weekly. 
March, 2010 -  A conceptual shoot with a friend, Rachel. Starting to play around with natural lighting and shadows.

April 5, 2010 - I made the dress pictured below for my first fashion location shoot with model, Jenn.

April 19, 2010 - An updated self portrait.

May, 2010 - Another shoot with Jenn. Shot at my dad's farm. I had my friend, Diana help me with hair and the body paint. 

June, 2010 - This is Tasha. We met online after seeing her work with other photographers in the area. Practicing still with fashion, lighting, and shadows.

July, 2010 - This is Rikki from Ignite - she was the first agency model I had ever worked with.

August, 2010 - I spent all of August doing commissioned work. Here is one of the pics from the 2nd wedding I shot.

Sept., 2010 - This is Lily from Ignite - this is the first time I had ever worked with a Hair & MUA.

Oct., 2010 - I met up with Rikki again to practice using my lighting and to take some simple portraits.

Nov. 2010 - This is Caroline from Ignite Models, this is the first time I had a whole team (a hair & MUA, a stylist, and assistants) working on a shoot together.

Dec. 2010 - Lastly, a a final self portrait for 2010. It's been a good year.

I have high hopes for 2011 as I am celebrating the new year in New York City.
2011 can only get better.
stay tuned. :)
xx, Autumn

Monday, December 20, 2010

Behind the Scenes - Winter Wonderland

A special thanks to Caroline and her mom for letting us use their backyard, Amber for her wonderful hair & makeup, Hollie Mae & AJ for all their wonderful work with the styling. Also, my boyfriend, Alan, who helped assist me and took some of the behind the scene photos. :)
I could not have done it without them.
Designer Rachel deLange, of j-fi fashion design, and her boyfriend stopped by to see how the shoot was going.
The lace hood (below) was designed by her.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Winter Wild

Model: Caroline from Ignite Models Inc.
Hair & Makeup by Amber Brenke
Wardrobe Styling by Hollie Mae of HM Styling
Wardrobe Styling Assisting by AJ
Designs by Rachel deLange
Designs by Renalie Bailey
Jewelry by SBG Designs
High Plains Thrifter
Vintage pieces from stylist

Monday, December 13, 2010

New Year's Resolutions

I was inspired by Samantha Nandez and Emily Tebbetts to go back and look at my 2010's New Year's Resolutions and I realized I definitely did not aim high enough. So this year - I am expecting much more out of myself and going to give myself more of a challenge.

2010's Resolutions
- live happily: I'd say I did a pretty good job doing this. But, it can always use improvement. Next year, less stress about money.

-make an effort with friends: I'd say I've gotten much better at this than I had been in 2009.  However, I still need work in this area so I will continue to work on this in 2011.

-buy 50mm lens: I bought this right away in January. I remember thinking how expensive a $300 lens was. HA. Recently I just bought the 85mm 1.2 I have changed my mind. lol

-buy the Canon 5d mark II: I was able to purchase my new camera back in April/May.

-save $1000.00: I was able to do this finally by summer and I had done a pretty good job holding on to it until just recently (w/ buying the 85mm 1.2)

-save up for lighting: I purchased a small lighting kit in Feb. (I think?) but this is something I'm going to continue to try to grow and use more often than I have been recently.

2011's Resolutions
1. Shoot more. much much more. My goal is at least once a week. This will probably be the hardest for me. Not because I don't want to shoot obviously, but because I hate doing self-portraits, it will be hard getting different people to shoot with every week, and I criticize myself so much on my own work.
2. Travel. Well I'm on a good route to this one. I'll be traveling to NYC/NJ for New Years. Also, I'm hoping to travel to Holland and England again next summer.
3. Move to a new city/state.
4. Continue to use my film camera more often.
5. See my images in a magazine in print!
6. Buy a new lens. or two. :)
7. Start shooting video.
8. Experiment more with studio setups & lighting.
9. Live Happily - (without worrying about money so much)
10. Go out more - I tend to be such a hermit (especially with my computer) this year I'd like to go out more and meet up with friends more often (& make more amazing friendships) :]

I'm sure I will think of more things to add to this. If I do, I promise to update it.

I hope you all have a great New Year! Good things are sure to come. =]

Saturday, December 11, 2010

portraits with Madi

I met up with my friend Madi to shoot around a bit, as I haven't been as shooting as much I promised myself I would be. *part of my new year ahead of me plan. =)

   Here are a couple shots from our meeting. :)

Monday, November 1, 2010

black & white

I met up with Rikki a week ago to shoot a few simple portraits. I always love meeting up with her. She has such powerful eyes and always blows me away with them.